Fall in New England. A beautiful time of year, leaves changing color, the beauty all around us layered in red and orange hues. On the one hand, this time of year can wreak havoc on someone who is already floating through the air (who me?) with all of these crisp, windy days. On the other hand, the changing light and the longer periods of darkness can encourage a sense of turning in.
Anyone that really knows me knows that I love summer weather, but I also love my fuzzy bathrobe, how to reconcile the two? Embrace the paradox. Embrace the change. Embrace the fading light. Use this season to take some time and nurture yourself. Step into the darkness, the shadow. Take the opportunity to cultivate some seeds you would like to sprout in your own life. This Yoga Union seed is one big one that I have to make room for. It has been planted. Now, let it take root. I want to keep digging through the dirt and yelling at it to GROW! Just making sure you are still there, is everything ok down there, do you have everything you need, more water, more light, better soil, should I have just planted you in a different garden??????
OK, pause, take your own advice. Plant the seed.
Also, maybe a little love and light and water. But mostly just trust that what you plant is growing from the abundance of love you contain. Be sure that what you plant, what you cultivate serves to expand you. Viveka, discernment. Be thoughtful about your choices. Sometimes it is not best to throw a bunch of seeds down and see what grows, sometimes it is better to be very particular about your one special seed. And then do not hug it so hard that you choke the life out of it!
This darker, slower time of year gives us the opportunity to pause. Be comfortable in the space. Find comfort in the wait, in the process. Surrender takes effort too. We spend so much time doing, can we just sit? Can we sit in the comfort of not knowing? Let life unfold. Try letting go of something and see what happens. You might be surprised that the Universe already knows how to support you. You can just lean in. Richard Rohr wrote that “…spiritual transformation is an active process of letting go, living in the confusing dark space for awhile, and allowing yourself to be spit up on a new and unexpected shore.”
I am ready for new and unexpected. I am ready for the dark. I am ready to let this seed grow. And I trust that it already contains everything it needs.